Pricey Lemonade, a Terrifying Ride, and a Child’s Hard Question

Pricey Lemonade, a Terrifying Ride, and a Child’s Hard Question
A Lump in the Road column “Mommy, are you going to die?” Maybe that was the hardest moment of my cancer journey, to hear that sweet voice in the darkness at Lauren’s bedside, asking the question we all wanted to ask. My husband and I were still in shock. We hadn’t wrapped our heads around the “C” word long enough to acknowledge out loud what the realities of our situation were, what life would look like with one of us missing. I put off telling Lauren as long as I could. “We have to tell her,” Gary kept saying. Of course I knew it. It was Friday, and we had just returned from the Stanford hospital, where I was told to go home and pack a bag. I was to return the following Monday for a battery of tests and the first round of chemo. Stanford was hours away from our home, and we hadn’t even figured out the logistics of who would care for our daughter while we traveled for treatment. Lauren was accustomed to having both her self-employed parents home all the time, and separation would be brutal on all of us. The three of us are tighter than last year’s dresses, before I get serious about dieting. Gary often refers to this period as the sausage dress syndrome. After dinner that Saturday night, we sat on the couch and gave Lauren the news. It was the bleakest conversation of my life, somber and such a contrast to the light-hearted way we usually live. She listened and asked questions, and we were open and truthful, telling her as much as we knew. But later that night, when I was t
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  1. Marla says:

    Thanks for this touching story. It hits home. I have a daughter too. I am wondering how you are doing now. How is she doing? Did you get counseling did she,did the family. How has it effected your marriage?
    Best wishes. God Bless you and your family members

  2. Nancy Brier says:

    Thank you for your heartfelt concern, Marla. Lauren is fine and currently volunteers at the Desert Cancer Foundation doing social media presentations to promote their events. Our family is closer than ever because of our experience with cancer, and we have more fun because we don’t take opportunities for granted like we sometimes used to. I wish the best for you and your family and hope recovery has a positive impact on every aspect of your lives.

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