More Breast Cancer Tests Lead to Relief, Then Worry

More Breast Cancer Tests Lead to Relief, Then Worry
The holiday season is meant for family, decorating, buying gifts and being happy. However, the 2015 season felt completely different since getting the news that I needed a biopsy on my left breast. We had Thanksgiving dinner at our house, and it was nice to feel the support from my family. I decided not to tell many people simply because I didn't want everyone to worry. This meant, especially, my 9-year-old daughter didn't need any worries. We are close, and she knows that sometimes people who have cancer don't always survive. My philosophy was to tell her when I had something to report, and not just speculation. My mother is a nurse, a cancer specialist, and clinical researcher. I'm fortunate to know someone so knowledgeable. We talked about my potential choices. She said that if she faced breast cancer, she would have a mastectomy. The idea of having a mastectomy seemed so foreign and scary that I couldn't wrap my mind around it. My family and I sat in disbelief that this was happening. After the Thanksgiving weekend passed and life resumed to normal, I sat one afternoon staring at the business card of an oncologist given to me after my ultrasound. I didn't want to call to make an appointment. It was just one more step in making everything more real. My husband came home from nursing school and sat with me as I called. A lump formed in my throat as I heard the receptionist say "oncologist office." I explained everything to her, and she nicely set up an appointment. I believe it was the next week. All I could do was live as always, while holding the weight of my future on my mind. In movies that focus on cancer patients, time goes by fast. It seems like appointments and tests are immediate. And either the person is cured or, unfortunately, doesn't s
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