A Second Opinion Helps Ease the Mind

A Second Opinion Helps Ease the Mind
Journey_Toward_Pink_Path_Jessica_Grono After the visit with my oncologist, informing me that he recommended a mastectomy, we walked toward the elevator. Luckily, I had an amazing support team: my mom, sister, and husband. In the elevator, my sister started to cry and I comforted her. I think the rollercoaster of emotions affected everyone. The oncologist said that I didn't need to rush into deciding  between a singular or double mastectomy. He said I should make a decision in about a month or so. The worst thing that could happen is that the DCIS cancer turns into something much worse. With that said, we all went out to lunch and I contemplated my next move. To me, the thought of a mastectomy was overpowering. I felt scared about the pain and the effects on my appearance. I dreaded the recovery and possible lack of independence. But do you know what I feared the most? I feared what I would see when I woke up in the recovery room and looked toward my chest. I honestly couldn't even imagine what would be in the place of my own natural body, or how I might feel. I also felt angry toward my disability of cerebral palsy. If I didn't have cerebral palsy, I could get radiation and be done with cancer. However, my involuntary spasms make radiation treatments impossible. Sometimes making sense of life isn't possible, and you just need to do the best you can with the information you have. I try to be a positive person, but in the case of breast cancer, I allowed myself to feel all of the emotions. I never dwelled
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